Saturday night, 16 August, 2008 23:00

Location: My apartment on Washington St., in Denver

Today

I was very productive and busy today. I managed to clean (dusted and vacuumed) and re-arranged the bedroom, cleaned (swept and mopped) and organized the storage room, swept and mopped the kitchen; I found an abandoned 3-drawer dresser in the alley, so I now have a dresser for clothes.

Love
I ended my love relationship with Danny this week, a few days ago actually. I have done quite a lot work, emotionally and mentally, in recent weeks. While doing all of this work, I discovered, realized, that 1) I am good for Danny, 2) Danny is not good for me. I also discovered & realized that I deserve the right, have the right, to be loved for who I am by a man who wants to be with me for me, not because I am convenient or a “warm body.” My boundaries were quite relaxed a few months ago; however, I restored them with a renewed vigor. Of those boundaries, smoking, womanizing (D claims to be bi), drugs, disrespect, and lack of affection are ones I will not permit crossings.

Books (one of my favorite subjects)
I went to the library earlier this week and found “Kite Runner” by Khaled Hosseini, “Let Your Life Speak” by Parker J. Palmer, “The Art of Living Consciously” by Nathaniel Branden. These books, I hope, will assist me in my daily efforts to remain strong, healthy, and in control.

Music (another of my favorite subjects)
I discovered “My Morning Jacket” and Bell X1. Both bands are awesome!